Hello bloggers and Happy New Year. I know its July but its my first blog of the year. My life in some ways has not been my own this year. A relative was diagnosed with cancer at Christmas which was followed by a terminal diagnosis in new year. The first part of the year was spent in various hospitals with docters appointments, tests, biopsies, scans and finally hospital admission. Then they passed away and we had the usual arrangements to make as we were next of kin. A few surprises along the way sorting the finances out as they hadn't been entirely honest with us , so along with bereavement, a lot of stress trying to sort everything out and dealing with creditors and various people involved in the process. We are hoping now that there are no more surprises , time will tell. Shortly after the bereavement we found out that I was expecting . We were both delighted and I found out at 7 weeks. I am quite old fashioned and don't believe in announcing until the 12 weeks have passed so other than my husband, mother and my work superior , no one else knew. So we were going along happily until just about a week before my 12 week scan when I began to spot. Nothing to much to begin with but over a course of two days it got worse and I miscarried. That was four weeks ago and was very hard to deal with. I am still dealing with it and no doubt always will. So I hope the rest of the year will be calm so that we can get our heads together and go forwards.